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Post by Swiftstar on Apr 8, 2008 17:39:27 GMT -5
Firefire sat under one of the few trees in WindClan territory. The camp was at her back. She was still shaking though it had been hours since her encounter with Rookpaw. She was staring out into the plains. her tail curled around her paws and her eyes shining with confusion. To her great relief, he hadn't followed her yet. "I'll go home in a bit." She decided. "I want to make sure he won't be out and about....." She knew she couldn't face him. She couldn't talk or think anymore when she was around Rookpaw. She had no clue how she'd aquired this crush on the younger cat, but she had. "Perhaps that's why i was so aggressive to Darkfur....."
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Post by Lonestar on Apr 8, 2008 17:52:20 GMT -5
Being able to find any cat anywhere Rookpaw had no problem tracking Foxfire. his last long bound, for this was how he travelled when in a hurry, flying for a long time close to the ground before letting his paws hit the ground and jumping into the air again, forming large gusts of wind to carry him on. He now landed a ways away from the tree, pulling the wind his way she would not pick up his scent he padded closer, he didn't smell any trouble and there still were no strange cats on the windclan turf. So why was she shaking like that? Why had she run out of amp he really didn't understand she-cats. They were so strange. He let the wind go, carrying his scent her way, all he knew was it was rude to sneak up on people. He made it look as though he had not seen her yet, padding casually over a path on the hillside, the coarse grass on either side of the dusty track brushing against his pelt in the wind.
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Post by Swiftstar on Apr 8, 2008 18:36:46 GMT -5
Foxfire jumped when she saw Rookpaw. Her dazed state hadn't really realized he was there until then. "Oh! R-r-rookpaw!" She studdered. Foxfire never studdered and was doing her best to stop. "What are you doing out here?" She asked, immediately getting to her paws and looking like she planned to run again. Her eyes were large and a smal grin was on her face as one paw dragged in the grass, bending it and clearing away leaves even as her eyes were constantly trained on Rookpaw. Her heart was beating faster and faster by the second and she suddenly found it hard to do anything but stand and stare. Without realizing it, she drew a heart with one paw.....
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Post by Lonestar on Apr 8, 2008 18:53:26 GMT -5
Rookpaw looked over as he heard his name, noticing the stuttering he wandered over. "You alright?" He asked staring at the firey she cat with slight worried grey eyes. This was defiantly not normal, perhaps she was sick? "I was just out and about, the fresh-kill pile was getting low and Lonestar told me to go find some food." He said, this was only half a lie lonestar had told him to get out of camp, he had looked fidgety just sitting there. He could never seem to keep his paws still. His eyes flicked to the ground where her paw was tracing patterens he stared at the ood shape for a moment, not recognising it and looked back at foxfire.
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Post by Swiftstar on Apr 8, 2008 19:20:44 GMT -5
Foxfire nodded. "I-I've just.... just gotta get my head to-to-together." She told him, instantly freezing. Her tail suddenly went stiff out behind her and she looked rather like sahe wasn't quite sure what to do..... or like she was incrediably scared. And she was. She was terrified that Rookpaw might think of her as a coward. Then she slowlyforced herself to relax. "You must think I'm either a complete idiot or that I'm ill and.... maybe I am.... Maybe I am ill...." Me murmured softly. "I think I've fallen in love..." She murmured, no longer looking at Rookpaw and suddenly finding her paws much more intereasting.....
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Post by Lonestar on Apr 8, 2008 22:34:15 GMT -5
Rookpaws ears were sharper than most, so he caught every word, his eyes widened for a moment. "Uh-huh." Yes, he had been right this was a she-cat thing, he relaxed a little he needn't be so concerned. "Well if your Ill you should probably-" He stopped as his ears caught the last muttering, ill and in love? "Are you pregnant Foxfire?" it was a logical conclusion, in love, and ill this coupled with the fact his mind had gone a little fuzzy helped. He kind of regretted saying that he bit his tongue inside of his mouth, knowing that hadn't been smart but still.
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Post by Swiftstar on Apr 8, 2008 22:58:38 GMT -5
Foxfire blinked at the sudden question. She also looked ready to bolt. Strangely enough, no rage flashed in her eyes. Nothing beyond fear and sorrow.... Fear of rejection and sorrow as she realized she had no chance of winning Rookpaws heart. "No." She said softly, voice weavering a bit more than usual. "It's a different kind of ill. A kind of ill my sister can't help with." She said softly, suddenly feeling more heartbroken then she had in a long time. She laid down, covering her face with her paws and trying to keep herself from crying. "No... The cat I love probably won't ever love me back so, why bother? Besides. I've just made myself look more like an idiot in front of him than I ever have." The words flew from Firefoxs' mouth before she could stop them. Instantly, her ears flattened against her head and she shrank away from Rookpaw, as if she expected him to attack her. Stupid, stupid, stupid! Watch what you say! Don't back-step! It'll just drive the point in further! You can't blow it off as a joke, either. Oh, why in the name of StarClan do I have to be so stupid?! She mentally berated herself, waiting for the inevitable......
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Post by Lonestar on Apr 9, 2008 0:27:59 GMT -5
Rookpaw blinked his mind still a little fuzzy but it clicked in, just blew it..what him? He blinked again wel even if it wasnt him he still felt desperate sympathy for the she cat. He padded over as she cover her head with her paws, sitting down beside the slightly-smaller she cat and wrapping his tai around her. "Im sure its not as bad as you think." He said, not wanting to make it seem like he thought it wasn't him and not knowing if it was him. He was a little confused. Why wouldnt he be? The she-cat hadnt torn his ears off for asking if she should be a queen. He looked over at her softly, puzzled. He would have never expected this from her...she as always so short tempered and angry. Icepetal, maybe, but foxfire?
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Post by Swiftstar on Apr 9, 2008 9:50:28 GMT -5
Foxfire relaxed slowly. Then it became apparent she was crying. For once, she had no witty retort. No reply to Rookpaw. Finally, she found words. "Yes, Rookpaw, it is. it is as bad as I think. I act tough to make it seem like i'm invincible. To push people away. I'm so sick of watching from afar. I'm so sick of loving a cat who doesn't evben consider it a possibility that I love." Foxfire tried to explain. Now that she had started, she didn't know if she could stop. But she couldn't tell him right out. She couldn't. "I'm sorry...." Was all she whispered to him, her tail slowly curling around her and as far away from his as possible, as if she was still trying to hide behind her walls. She desperately wanted him to tell her he loved her but, somehow, knew the chances were slim. Even Icepetal didn't know Foxfire had a crush on Rookpaw. And a part of Foxfire seemed intent to keep it that way.....
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Post by Lonestar on Apr 9, 2008 17:50:56 GMT -5
Rookpaw was silent for a minute. "Why push them away if you love them?" he asked rather confused sure he knew most of the she-cats anger was just an act therefore he never took any notice of it. He did knw other cats disliked it though, he looked at her quietly, grey eyes softer than usual he pulled a a wind letting it pla at her fur. "Nothing to be sorry for Foxfire."
There weren't mny toms to choose from...he knew it wasnt lonestar...so she must be talking about him. He blinked eyeing the older she-cat for a moment he pulled his tongue over her head, purring. "Don't be so sad foxfire, your starting to worry me again"
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Post by Swiftstar on Apr 9, 2008 18:45:06 GMT -5
"I suppose to keep myself from being hurt." Foxfire mewed softly. "Or maybe to keep from hurting them." She continued, relaxing only when he licked her head. Then a slwo purr started. "I am? I don't mean to." She told him, licking him back. "I'm sure you've guessed by now but the tom I'm talking about is you." She told him, taking a roundabout way to tell him she loves him simply because she wasn't sure she had the courage to tell him outright....
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Post by Lonestar on Apr 10, 2008 16:54:12 GMT -5
Rookpaw was silent for a moment. "Yeah...i guessed." He said grey eyes moving to meet hers. he smiled softly not really sure of what to do. Sure he liked foxfire but 'love' still had the taste of being an icky word to him. He chuckled rembering kit-days. Those had been fun he wasnt a warrior yet but he would be soon. He sighed thinking s quickly as he could. He did like foxfire...but he found himself incapable of words for once, he shook his head, unhappy with himself, he dragged his tongue down her pelt once more before his legs acted of their ow, picking him off the ground and bounding forward after he managed to choke out a happy "Seeyou around." His legs were getting him away without his conscious control of the. it was odd...he didn't remember wanting to get away but then again...he needed to think. He didnt use the air, she might follow his scent but he didnt think she would. When he was a warrior...then he would talk to her again. he would keep himself busy, out of the camp untill then. He was very old for an apprentice but there was something about still carrying the last name 'paw' that embarrassed him, especially with a warrior like foxfire telling him she loved him. He was not yet deserving of such activities that came with love untill Lonestar might make him a warrior.
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Post by Swiftstar on Apr 10, 2008 22:04:57 GMT -5
Firefox watched him go, got up, and slowly began heading back to camp. There was no spoke coming from her paws. Her eyes were the same color as dieing embers as Firefox slipped into a depression. "Goodbye, Rookpaw..." She meowed in the direction he went, her tail dragging behind her as she decided she didn't want to go back to camp right then. She laid down where she was onto her belly and laid her chin on her paws, staring blankly at the ground in front of her, mind blank and focusing on the sorrow beginning to grip at her heart.....
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